Tuesday, June 14, 2011

Dreams again...

I regularly have the most bizarre dreams at night.  What's interesting is my sleep pattern now-a-days: I wake up almost exactly every hour and a half...roughly 90 minutes, give or take a couple.  What I find interesting about that is how I manage one whole REM cycle and then somehow magically wake up, no matter how deep I was sleeping.  My dreams will even be interrupted once that internal timer goes off and my eyes pop open and there I am, exhausted, but "awake."  I'm always able to go right back to sleeep and it seems like I immediately go right back to dreaming.  I'm also super tired every morning because I can't really lock in more than 2 consecutive hours of sleep, even with tylenol pm (which I only take when I have back pain at night). P.S. waking up every 1 1/2 hours with a Tylenol PM in your system makes for some very weird trips to the bathroom in the middle of the night because I can tell I'm SUPER groggy and "drugged" but just can't seem to stay asleep...I've stubbed pretty much all my toes and run into pretty much every wall/door on the way for a mid-night bathroom break. HA.

So last night, I had probably some of the most unnerving dreams I've ever had, but one in particular is that I dreamt about Gracie, but sometimes she wasn't there...I've never seen her face in my dreams, but last night, I was holding an empty blanket, knowing that it was Gracie, but she wasn't actually "physically" there in the  blanket--like I just can't come up with what she's gonna look like at all so she's always non-existent and yet, she's there.  Weird, no?  Chad told me the other day that he dreamt about her and when I asked him what she looked like, all he said was, "beautiful"....I guess I'm going to have to wait for her to actually arrive before I'll know what she looks like!

2 comments:

  1. i hear ya on the crazy dreams! they got worse AFTER evelyn was born for me because i would wake sam up thinking she was in the bed with us and we were smothering her, like rolling over her, or i had lost her in the sheets. i would say to him, "move over, you are smashing her." or " where is she? where is she?" even one night i remember waking up and pushing sam while telling him he was smashing her and he needed to move! NUTS!!! its a whole new ballgame!!!

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  2. Good practice for waking up to nurse all night - heehee! :) You're just going to love being parents! Chris and I both think it's our favorite stage of live ever!

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